Second Heartbeat: An Epic of Time Wasted

i'd put myself into the unnecessary love...
i'd gone through the unnecessary death...
i'd destroyed a friendship...
i'd obliterated this blog, my own blog...
i want to come back...
i want to be back...
this blog is never meant for love...
never for mashed-love...
that i thought exist...
all the metallians, come with me...
together we put our head to the ground back again...

-palola-

Trashed And Scattered: Shattered By Broken Dreams

I've learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance and some goes for true love.

I've learned that there are people, who love you dearly, but juz don't know how to show it.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust and only seconds to destroy it.

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is to be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they are going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease the emotional pain.

I've learned that we have to meet a few wrong ones before we can appreciate the right one.

I've learned that grudges are a waste of perfect happiness.
Laugh when we can,
apologize when we should,
and let go what we can't change.
Life is too short to be unhappy.

-palola-

Lost

Listen close... as the rain falls down to the ground...
Is it true? Are we destined to fail?

I have a problem here... with our society...
I absence of my tears... it is my sobriety...
I have a growing fear... and you're not helping me...
Am I the only one who realizes it's true?...

I'm beat but I'm not broken... pliz guide me through with your hand...
I'm lead with your words spoken... pliz show me how to listen...

You're persecuting me... showing hypocrisy...
I have a remedy... it's for your insecurity...
It's all the same, sadly... n nobody works for free...
Am I the only one who realizes it's true?...

Let your light shine through me... pliz take this hate, coz I can't release...
Help me make the blind see... coz misery loves it's company...

When I dream, I see dawn turn into dusk...

Is it true? Are we destined to fail?

-palola-

And All Things Will End

To love is to risk not being loved in return...
To hope is to risk pain...
To try is to risk failure...
...but risk must be taken...
because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing...

-palola-

Girl I Know part 2

i do not know where my love at before...
but for the very first time in my life...
i can feel it coming...

so fast...faster...
it really disturbs me, every day, every second of my life...it keeps waking me up from my sleep almost every one hour...i couldn't sleep well...is every time i wake up from my dream bcoz of HER?...i can't really explain 'bout it...i do not eat from the last 72 hours( i'm juz drink some 100plus tonic) n i'm not freaking hungry...i can throw away my hunger by juz remembering HER...wat happen to me? could sum one tell me what,why? i'm gonna cry for this... i'm gonna die for this...oh, My God... I really, really, really, really , really, really, really, really , really, really, really, really , really can't stand on this anymore....i'm missing her sooooooooooo much...plizzzzz, help me plizzzzzz...i never feel like this before, n i'm not fit for it...i'm suffering, i'm dying...plus, i never told nobody about this thang... ...this is the first time n i'm gambling on who is da first to read, to know...i see my study is burning, coz i can't focus on it anymore...is this what we call -THAT-? pliz tell me my fren...i really beg for sum help...

-palola-

Girl I Know

My best friend said,

"tino ni, kalu de dio wak kito ni saing,
PAYOH doh dio nak trimo kito jadi gewe dio,
walaupong kito nok mapuh dok ghoyak ko dio hok kito ni dok saye dio sgt2..."
"hok jate pulok, kalu de dio saing nge tino ni gak,
sene jah nok tukar jadi saye, dio buleh tukar feeling jadi cinta bilo2 jah..."

"tapi gak kalu doh break,
hok tino nge sene nyor bole plok ghoyak 'KITO BOLE JADI SAING'..."
"tp kalu jate bilo doh break dgn mudoh dio bleh ghoyak 'KITO PILIH JALE ASING2', siap bleh tamboh 'AKU XSE KELIH DOH MUKO DIO'..."

"dunio ni nok jadi supo nate apo laa! tok pehe, tok pehe wey kawe...."

he added that all these things happen to men bcoz,
when a man fall in love with a girl, he un'disclose'ly give his all to the love...
and also men always suffer more (instead of stress) than women everytime they clashed with their lover... but they can easily control that feeling...

to women,
it's unfair 4 me to state here bcoz dis is only the matter of opinion (of my friends)...
better u all girls make ur own perceptions about ur self...

-palola-

credits to: pusar (translation advisor for 'Kelate' dialect)

The Art Of Subconscious Illusion

sory for all, dear...
i named dis blog as 'my second heartbeat' as I intent to
make it such a voice which come out of my heart...
i wrote everything I feel impulsively, n not what I think promptedly...
dis is no like sharing moment or what...
dis is such an ART OF SUBSCONSCIOUS ILLUSION

i juz ever state my fren's name once, n dat's it...
no more after this...
coz in the heart, we never mention names...

but I do have sum other blogs that bring dissimilar
dimension of my world, pliz explore through it:
i) wordpress.com
ii) thought.com



-palola-

Clairvoyant Disease

wargghhhh!!!!
may I feel this life is a burden???
sum1 please guide me through dis 'chaos of mind'...

serj;
"it's a lonely day, n it's mine...''



i know there's nowhere to run...
when u living to die...
think I stuck alone, in this empty house,
n no one's around...
plizz...



i beg for sum help...

-palola-